I became a mom exactly one month ago. It's hard for me to believe it's already been that long, but at the same time, it feels like I've had Caleb forever. The transition into parenthood has gone pretty smoothly for us, I think. Reality has definitely been different than our expectations in some ways, but taking care of our son feels so natural most of the time. He's this wonderful little creature that surprises me so much sometimes! The changes he's gone through in such a short amount of time are remarkable.
I'm terrified that eventually I'll forget these little details that are so precious and unexpected, so I've decided that I'm going to keep track of my journey here. I hope I'll be able to look back and smile and say, "Oh yeah, I remember that..." and I love the idea that someday my little guy will be able to read this and cherish it too.
I'm terrified that eventually I'll forget these little details that are so precious and unexpected, so I've decided that I'm going to keep track of my journey here. I hope I'll be able to look back and smile and say, "Oh yeah, I remember that..." and I love the idea that someday my little guy will be able to read this and cherish it too.
What a sweetie. He's been smiling so much lately. These huge, intentional grins are seriously just heart-melting goodness. Some of my favorite moments are right after we both wake up for the day. He eats, then I change his diaper and afterwards, he lays on the floor looking up at me, totally content. We sometimes sing and I give him LOTS of kisses (he's going to have to learn to love them). He loves it when I lift his legs up and move them around while he's on his back, so we spend some time "running", "dancing", and "biking." Wonder how long he'll put up with that? :)
I had this amazing moment the other day, one of my favorites as a mom thus far. Caleb was nursing and when he finished, I burped him on my shoulder as usual. Then, without warning, he lifted his head, turned towards me, and started sucking on my chin. It was so funny and sweet and totally caught me by surprise. Andrew was in the kitchen, and I called him over and then just started giggling uncontrollably. It felt like a little kiss from my baby and let me tell you what, I'm SO excited for when he's old enough to give me real kisses (even if they are sloppy and wet like that one). I figured that it was probably his way of letting me know he wasn't done eating, but when I offered him more, he just turned his head, looked up at me, and gave me a big grin.
Sometimes I look down at his chubby little face and my heart literally skips a beat. I made a human. He's soft and adorable and loud and oh so precious. I still can't believe it sometimes. Thinking about the weight and wonder of parenthood for a second too long can definitely make me cry (happy, happy tears). I get to watch this baby grow into a little boy full of funny questions and giggles and messes, to a (hopefully!) respectful, resourceful teenager, to a good man like his dad. He's mine forever. I mean, wow! I wonder what he'll be like, I just can't wait to watch him grow and see his little personality develop. Will he be relaxed, goofy, and hardworking like his daddy? Bookish and creative like me? I don't know, but I can't wait to find out. In the meantime, I'll enjoy these little moments with this twelve pound bundle of pure awesome. :D
I had this amazing moment the other day, one of my favorites as a mom thus far. Caleb was nursing and when he finished, I burped him on my shoulder as usual. Then, without warning, he lifted his head, turned towards me, and started sucking on my chin. It was so funny and sweet and totally caught me by surprise. Andrew was in the kitchen, and I called him over and then just started giggling uncontrollably. It felt like a little kiss from my baby and let me tell you what, I'm SO excited for when he's old enough to give me real kisses (even if they are sloppy and wet like that one). I figured that it was probably his way of letting me know he wasn't done eating, but when I offered him more, he just turned his head, looked up at me, and gave me a big grin.
Sometimes I look down at his chubby little face and my heart literally skips a beat. I made a human. He's soft and adorable and loud and oh so precious. I still can't believe it sometimes. Thinking about the weight and wonder of parenthood for a second too long can definitely make me cry (happy, happy tears). I get to watch this baby grow into a little boy full of funny questions and giggles and messes, to a (hopefully!) respectful, resourceful teenager, to a good man like his dad. He's mine forever. I mean, wow! I wonder what he'll be like, I just can't wait to watch him grow and see his little personality develop. Will he be relaxed, goofy, and hardworking like his daddy? Bookish and creative like me? I don't know, but I can't wait to find out. In the meantime, I'll enjoy these little moments with this twelve pound bundle of pure awesome. :D